| | Love is you.
Yeah... it's him.
And I'm crazy about him. haha
He's
an answered prayer, too. He came at the perfect time. I say that
because I'm completely over my ex. And I made sure of that when I was
there for the World Youth Conference in Cali. That's also when I made a
promise to Him to step up with my service and that's when I also got my
answer of what my next step should be. I've received alot of graces
this year and so many blessings, more than I could have ever asked for.
And I'm so focused and I've made a few vows to myself that I intend on
keeping... and then came him :]
I can't describe how I feel. It's different from how I felt with anyone else. We had our
first phone conversation after it being made official or whatever...
and we were both sooo nervous, my palms were sweating like madd and I
couldn't stop cheesin' like a mug hahaha... retarded much? Yes. It's a
really different feeling... maybe because I really feel like this could
go somewhere and not be one of those stupid 3-week relationships. I
really want to try to be the best that I can for him. I hope he can be
comfortable around me because I feel really comfortable around him...
even with that whole butterfly-in-the-stomach, sweaty palms feeling
haha... it's all in a good way.
And what I love most is that he
really is an answered prayer. I say that because when I realized I was
finally over Ant and whoever past ex's or whatever they were... I
prayed to God and asked Him that "whoever comes along, please let me
take my time with him and help me to be friends with him first. Please
help me to stay on top of my service and keep my commitments to my
youth. And please if it's possible, let him be the one... because I
don't want one of those relationships that last for a few weeks or
months or years when there wasn't even the possibility of a future
anyways. I want to be with someone who could see himself marrying me
and vice versa (which I do see is possible with him). I'm done playing
around... but I won't be looking, I'll be waiting." And he's
BNP... it's absolutely wonderful. We can grow and learn with each other
in His love. I just hope we can help grace each other up, instead of
bring each other down.
I hope I've learned from my past relationship on how to be a better girlfriend.
I hope that I can be one of his best friends. Yeah, so I watched the
Notebook last night hahaha I DO BELIEVE IN LOVE STORIES .. not
like in the movies, but I do believe in happy endings. GOSH!
And
then he came along. First we were joking and then he asked me if we
really are together and I was like heck yeah... I was scared out of my
socks to tell him, too because I didn't know if he felt the same and I
had already started developing feelings for him through that whole
"joke" only to find out later that he liked me all along and he
started that joke because he really did want to be with me. And I LOVE
the fact that we started off as friends and he was someone I could
really trust, even if I didn't talk to him all the time or whatever...
I did trust him. Dang, I freakin gave him the link to this journal.
Insannneee.
Ahhhh but yes. This is the Simon-post. The update of my life thus far. And I'm just so happy.
I
really do hope he sticks around... I hope that he can be that person
that is willing to commit to me, falling in and out and BACK in love
with me. I hope that'll be him. But I lie... I don't want to have too
high of hopes. But I'm just so happy. Like really happy.
I hope
he understands my insecurities. I told him and he seems really patient
and understanding. He's always reassuring me. I love it.
Haha and NO ONE believed that we were together. But WE ARE and it's too good. I feel like a loser haha I can't stop smiling.
And I hope I can make him just as happy.
I'm excited to see him this weekend :]
Oh yeah, he's a long-distance loverrr haha but alot closer and in the same time-zone, it's quite nice.
He's
a New Yorker... I can't wait to visit him over there! I know it's too
early to say I love him or whatever because I'm not going to jump that
quickly... but I know him. And I trust him. And it's beautiful.
<3
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